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Stepping Back.

Posted by Seancglover - August 14th, 2020

First off, i'd like to say. Being in this community has been the best years of my life. But unfortunately I'm going to be stepping back.

I have suffered with depression and suicidal tendencies for most of my life. Resulting in me turning to alcohol as a coping mechanism. Which obviously can lead to doing some pretty dumb things.

The reason for leaving is not based solely off of that, but the isolation, drama and lies it has caused since.

I'd like to comment about various people I have known in this community over the years, and hopefully heal any wounds people may have.

First and foremost I'd like to start with;

@Cymbourine . You were my first real relationship, as poorly as it may have turned out, the time we had together were easily some of my best of my life. Im unsure what I did recently for you to ghost me, id hoped we could of talked things out back in February, but thats OK. There isn't a day that goes by where I wish I didnt do things differently, Im sorry that I hurt you. And I wish you happiness and success in your career.

With that in mind;

@Kelzad , unfortunately I don't think I'd ever trust you on a personal level or ever be able to shake your hand. Only thing I could note is you're a talented animator. Even if the story is lame. I can only wish you all the best with your future endeavours.

@Jsoull , I still think the "bully" persona is a negative one. but others seem to get on with it, so not much else to say there. I don't think we really had much beef, I still stand by the betryal collab being a cheap and poor taste thing to do. But hopefully the community has grown out of those petty things. All the best.

@Gibb50 , I think you're a genuine guy, but I feel like you kiss kelzads ass too much. I remember the time when you were one of the big buys in the community its a shame to see you where you right now, I wish you the best.

@kRyy , I think you have a lot of wasted potential sometimes. I think if you took your work more seriously you could do something really special. It's a shame the masked man stuff never went anywhere. But we never really had much beef.

@Spirit9871, Thanks for making CRM. Without it I wouldn't have met cymb and a few other people, I'm glad we met up in February. It was nice to see a face to the name after so many years.

Sparrow , It's been a fun ride. Its been an honour to see CRM grow into what it is now, regardless of all the drama that came with it. I hope it can continue to succeed for many years to come.

@SentryTurbo , I never talked to you that much, but I hope you can do a full movie / solo project, you're a talented guy it would be a shame to not expand your work. I wish you luck in your future.

@Krinkels , you've been an inspiration to me seeing your transformation over the last few years. Your can do attitude and work ethics are something I think everyone should strive for. I'll still be in the MPN backgrkund stuff obviously. But from a Madness standpoint. It was one of my first online experiences and I've met so many people because of your work. So I thank you. And I bless your gains.

So i'll still be finishing the documentary, but in terms of being inside the community and doscord servers, im not gonna be around.

Sorry if I missed anyone, my mind is fragmented at the moment.

If you need to contact me, dm me here or on discord: [Sean] #3611



Comments (12)

what's the fucking point of posts like this, you could keep dramas like that in dm's

There's no drama here, I attempted to reach out to people but they just ghost me. I figure a more public post would suffice.

This is lowkey a Bruh Moment...

Get it off your chest only now and in addition on a public post , I don't know if it's a good idea.
It seems like you are throwing wood into the fire dude

Get what off my chest? Why are people treating this like some huge deal

send me cock

Sean. I'm terribly sorry things went the way they did. Everyone makes mistakes and deserves a second chance. Just not a fifth, sixth, seventh... you get the point. Isolation, drama, and lies indeed. Ideals that are detrimental to any community that continue today and have all but supplanted our core values.

This post you made is genuine and it just goes to show that despite everything, you really do care about this community and respect the talented people in it. Even if every single allegation against you is true, what right would people have to publicly ridicule you over it? What does this community stand to gain by dragging your name through the mud? The answer is absolutely nothing. It only serves to drive a wedge between our already fractured community.

I'm really just tired of all of it. When I was brought into CRM as a moderator I never expected the roots of the hatred to run this deep. I was prepared to do anything for this community. And to this day, I still am. If anything, the hardship I've seen you and others go through, and what I've personally experienced myself has really only strengthened my resolve to make this a better place for everyone.

It's going to be a shame to see you go. You really have put a lot of effort forth for Madness Combat - a lot more than you get credit for. Just know that you're better for leaving, if only to just focus on your self-improvement and get away from the staggering negativity.

I know that I will get pissed on by the community for this comment. But I invite anyone who considers doing so to just drop their pretenses, detach themselves from their ego, and look at themselves from an outside perspective - over the shoulder, standing behind the person they watch hunched behind their monitor. That person is who you are, for better or for worse. What would you think of yourself? If you can't answer that question honestly, then you might be in for a reality check in the coming months.

That's really all I have to say here. You guys know where to find me as well, if you have any constructive feedback. KoblerMan#5106

I appreciate the sentiment.

@kokkare yummy

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to erase the things of the past take brown Listerine and baptize yo ass with it.

Mucho Texto

@SLeeZiz have you heard of brown listerine

@KoblerMan Mucho Texto

Sorry to hear about the depression and suicidal tendencies. Best wishes to you for the future.