sometimes you learn things that you regret knowing. things that keep you awake at night. stop you from eating, socializing, and sometimes it just becomes a bit much. ive got so much up my sleave that i find it hard to contemplate what to do with it. because on the one hand i could just come out with it, but theres always that slim possability im wrong. and if i am, then i will have destroyed months and months of work. so i just keep trampling through. hoping one day, the dots will connect, and on that day, i can share it with you all.